Being a mother

It still amazes me that I'm a mum. Having Josiah in my life has totally turned my life upside down. It's tiring, sometimes frustrating, totally time consuming ....... But ...... When he looks at me, smiles, laughs or just gurgles, my heart totally melts and I feel a surge of love that I never knew I could feel.

He is truly an amazing child. Such a blessing to us.

I think I like being a mother.

Off to rebond my hair tomorrow. Perming didn't do so well with my hair.

Spent half the day in church. This was the 2nd time serving. Am so happy that Ivan decided to join the welcome team as well. Pastor Mervin preached a great message today. Great preparation for when I have kids one day.

Went to Veenas to get my hair done. Birthday treat from Aunty Sharm. Ivan sat in the shop for the 3+ hours that it took to get my hair done. Poor thing but he was so sweet about it.

Tomorrow is a public holiday. We are meeting Shayna, Kp, Mama, Rayna and a bunch of church friends for breakfast at Yut Kee's followed by Christmas decoration shopping and some clothes shopping. Then prayer meeting in the evening.

It's gonna be a packed day.

My blackberry conked out! Only had it less than 2 months! Ridiculous. Thank God for the back up phone. Have to wait until Tuesday before we can go get it fixed. Oh well!

Birthday in 6 days and Christmas decorations go up! Yay!

November

Ahhh November. A month I look forward to and yet also a month I don't look forward too. Why? Coz November is when I put up my Christmas decorations but its also the month I turn one year older.

Yet I want to focus only on the positive. I have much to be thankful for.

The days have been fleeting, I'm not sure how much I have accomplished. THis is going to be a month of contemplations and planning and decision making.

GOD is good ALL the time, and ALL the time, GOD is good

God is always faithful. No matter what my day is like, I know that it can only get better because God has my life in His hands and as the bible says, "with God for you, who can be against you?".

This week Ivan and I began to spend time praying and studying the bible together. I know its not something that Ivan is too comfortable with but I believe that this is actually strenghtening us. Praying as a family is something we intend to continue even when we have kids.

All of us will go through ups and downs in life. We will face challenges and obstacles. But no matter what, God is there for us. When we are weary and feel we can't go on much longer, God will carry us through.

I continue to pray for Gods peace to come upon me in choosing the path for my future. I continue to believe and have faith that all my dreams and desires will come to pass. And I continue to thank and praise God for His blessings every day.

I am so blessed. I have more than millions of others. I have a supportive and loving family. I have good friends. I have a good job. I have a wonderful husband and in laws. I have a beautiful home, and a good car and a darling dog. I have a wonderful church with great leaders and a great connect group. I have a good life and it's all thanks to the Lord Jesus.

So even if things get difficult, I will continue and praise Him for all that He has done and for his goodness, grace, mercy and love.

God is good ALL the time, and ALL the time, God is good!

mid year....

hard to believe its already 6 months into the year....
It has been an interesting time with good times and bad times but with Gods grace I am stronger than before. God is truly wonderful :-)

I'm already looking forward to Christmas.. haha! As i write this, im listening to a few Christmas songs :-) I know I know 6 months early but oh well!

Ivan and I are planning a beach holiday with our friends Ben and Loraine. If everything goes as planned, the holiday will be in August! I can't wait!

Went for one of my colleagues engagement/wedding dinner Saturday night. It was nice catching up with Mondy, Vince and Casey. How I have missed them!

Looking forward to some good news this week at work...

God and Prayer

I read someones blog today about prayer and it made me think about my own prayer life. I havent been to church the whole of November... first because I was sick and then just pure laziness!

But more than works, I realise that I have not been spending much time in prayer. An area of life that needs to be habitual rather than scheduled.

Prayer helps put things into perspective. It makes me less selfish because beyond praying for myself, there are a lot more people out there to pray for! Prayer helps bring peace to my heart because after letting it all out and leaving it at God's feet, I know that no matter the circumstances or what I see or feel, I know that with God all things are possible and every problem, trial, illness, is taken care of by Him.

I'm glad that I was led to that blog. It's a message to me.

What I'll be praying for the next one month:

A. Good Health and healing - for my loved ones and myself who are struggling in this area.
B. Finances - for a couple of friends who are struggling financially.
C. Malaysia - for our leaders and citizens - for an end to corruption and disunity
D. Business growth and success
E. Love and grace

May all your prayer lives be fruitful and growing.

God Bless

What is it?

A dear friend sent me an email today. This is a part of what she wrote :

Hey Michelle
I was spending some time praying. And while i was praying for you, i had this picture that came to me for you. There is a very big strong root in ur life. Its like u know this root that is causing so much of problem in ur life. I dont know. And He wants you to ask Him to help u remove it from ur life. Cos this root is very deeply rooted in ur life. and there are small root from the big root starting to take control of ur life. He want you to ask him to remove it from ur life. .

What is the root? I don't know. But I do know that I have been feeling very overwhelmed and suffocated and over my head. I have felt the need to escape- away from everyone and everything. I guess I need to spend time in prayer and ask God to reveal to me what this root is. And learn to let go and leave it all in His hands.

Lord Jesus, I pray for a revelation from you and that my eyes will be opened. Whatever it is that is causing me to be held back and is taking control of my life, I speak against it and I ask You Lord to remove it from my life. Amen