Weight Loss Progress

OK. It's been 1 week and 3 days since I last put the details. So this morning, I weighed myself again. Below is the figures

Weight : 95.6kg
Body Fat : 39.1%
Water : 38.8%

That's not bad seeing as how no exercise was involved.

What I have been doing is a "semi-detox", which is basically only fruits, fresh fruit juices, water and chinese/green tea from morning till dinner time and then I eat dinner. It was hard when I started it on Monday, but it has gotten easier.

Now to make sure I stick to that and I will definitely be able to reach 90kg by October 14th!

Short term target

I have decided that I need to reach 90kg by October 14th, which is the day of my cousin's wedding. This is way higher than what I had initially aimed for; but then no use crying over split milk. I just need to pick myself up and start over again.

That gives me 6 weeks to lose 7kgs. Seems doable. Now just to zip my mouth and keep my itchy hands away from temptation... Sounds difficult especially because I cannot exercise but I know that if I just put my mind to it and just keep reminding myself of the benefits, I will be able to do it.

I will keep updating this blog with my progress. Keep praying for my success ok?!

Cheers

Setting Goals and Targets

Everyone knows how important it is to set goals and targets to achieve anything you want to achieve in life; whether it is XXX amount of sales brought in, XXX amount of kgs to lose, XXX amount of money to save, etc.

I have struggled with goals and targets my whole life. I do the yearly New Year resolutions list with all the goals I want to achieve in life; but rarely do I achieve them.

This year, I set the following goals

1. Lose weight and get fit - to reach 70kg
2. Clean out my guest room turned store room (DONE!)
3. Clear off all my debts
4. Build the company I work with to greater heights
5. Get closer to God and spend more time reading the Bible and in prayer

So looking at the above, I have only done 1 out of 5. I'm still working on the rest or rather struggling with the rest. I hope to get at least 1 more completed before the end of the year.

Not Again!

I'm having trouble with my back again. And at the same spot as one of my slipped discs! I think the travelling last week to Ipoh caused it because the pain started on the way back. Slight only but its been increasing day by day and yesterday I was walking pretty slow. I don't want this again, I can't deal with this now, I need to exercise! I had to miss kickboxing because of this..

Just got back from a conference. Pain was better this morning but the sitting and standing at the conference has aggravated it.. sigh.. I don't want to touch any painkillers.


I weighed myself this morning. These are the numbers.

Weight : 97kg
Body Fat - 39.5%
Water - 38.3%
YIKES!

I have a long way to go....

BUT I WILL DO IT!

The Climb

This song speaks to me at so many levels and it is the song that helps me push on. Listen to it when you are feeling down, or when it just gets too hard and the light at the end of the tunnel feels too far to reach

The Climb (Miley Cyrus)

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head saying,
You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I

Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going

And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on Climbing Guys!

The Struggles of a Hippo

I am desperately wanting to get my life together, to lose weight, to be healthy, to be slim and beautiful and be able to wear nice dresses and clothes. But am I desperate enough?? I think I am.... but then why is it so hard for me then to resist temptations, to be like my two sisters; who when they decide that they need to lose weight they will go on a diet and exercise and lose it!

I on the other hand, keep making the decision to lose weight but then I keep falling off the wagon constantly :-(

Look at my recent attempt. From November 2008 till May 2009, I lost 13kgs. But since May till now, I have put back on about 4kgs! Knowing how hard it was for me to lose the weight in the first place, why is it I allow myself to slip and indulge and put on the weight again??

And everytime I get a scare like in my last post, I behave myself for awhile and then I just fall off the track again.

It is so frustrating and I get so angry with myself all the time. I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I am afraid to think about how my husband might feel with the way I look. I get frustrated every time I see other girls (including my sisters) looking slim and beautiful and wearing the nice sexy clothes. And yet, I am unable to stick to any diet!

I am sick and tired of myself.

Today is just one of the many days that I feel a whole lot of self loathing.

Does anyone else feel the way I feel?

A Shocking Jolt back to Reality

I have to be honest. I ate and drank a lot of rubbish over the weekend. That includes fast food, alcohol, more fast food, and a lot of sweet stuff. I totally let go this weekend.

Yesterday evening I started to develop a headache. It started as a light throbbing and continued to increase in intensity and pain. By the end of the night, I felt sick and my head was pounding.

I thought it was just wind inside my body so I got my husband to massage my head, which helped a bit. I took a Panadol soluble at about 9pm. It didn't make much difference.

I went to bed at about 11.30pm. I felt lousy. I couldn't sleep the whole night because of the pain. At about 2am in the morning, I took 2 Panadol Actifast.

I woke up at 7am this morning. I had a shower and washed my hair. I felt better then. At work, I started to feel lousy again. No headache but I just felt lousy all over and my stomach felt funny.

I decided to go check my glucose level. The pharmacist used 3 different machines to check. One gave a normal reading, and the other two gave a high reading. He checked again, and the other 2 machines (which are the latest in the market) again came back with high readings.

That was a shock to my system. I freaked out. The pharmacists asked me to come back again in the evening. I was worrying the whole time. I had a bun after and for lunch I had chappati with some fish and veges and I just drank water.

I went for another test at 4pm. This time my reading was much lower than the mornings reading. It wasn't good - because it is still higher than it should be, but it is much better than morning.

This is a real wake up call for me not to mess around. I am 29 years old. Both my parents are diabetics and my dad has heart problems. I am not a diabetic - at least not yet. The path I am now on is leading me to self destruction.

I need to get off this track and I need to do it now.

Will someone help me please?!

Kickboxing

I started taking up kickboxing classes a couple of months ago. This was before I started OBC.

I kick box at the Jak Othmans Kickboxing Studio at SS15 in Subang Jaya. Why did I join? Well the womens' gym that I had gone too for a couple of months hardly had any business and it was getting a bit boring so I wanted to try something new.

Kickboxing is fun. It is tough but definitely not as tough as OBC. And we get more breaks in between! I enjoy it because besides getting exercise, I get to let out stress. I just love punching the focus pads after a hard day at work.

I try to go at least twice a week; but lately I have only been going once a week. Each class is an hour. We start with warmups and stretches and then we usually get to punching exercises using gloves and focus pads and we do the various kicking stances. It is a lot of fun.

We also do sit ups, leg ups and back extension exercises. I am still struggling with the leg ups. Because of my super sized body, I find it hard to lift my legs up so I still have not been able to do this properly or even to do more than 15! The sit ups are ok but I stop in between. As for the back extension exercises, my hubby has a nice laugh at me everytime I do it because I lift my shoulders and upper body off the floor but I can't lift my boobs off the floor! Bloody bags are huge and heavy! Girls out there, big boobs are not all that great!

So anyways, that's my experience kickboxing. I just need to keep myself disciplined to keep going for classes.

Reading my posts, you might wonder, I am kickboxing and doing OBC so why haven't I lost weight???!! Simple, I am still eating rubbish and eating a lot. That is something that I am struggling to get control off.

I'll keep you updated on that..

Cheers

Original Bootcamp

I first heard about OB through a friend Ben. His friend is one of the people to bring this franchise over to Malaysia. I read up about OB and was instantly interested. The only set back was that it was from 5.45am to 6.45am in the mornings! That put me off at first but as I am desperate to lose weight, I decided to sign up for the 1 week free trial that they were offering. I forced my hubby to join me for this.

Waking up at 5am was tough! But the experience during the trial week was both horribly torturous and exhilarating at the same time. I was pushed beyond what I could ever push myself to do and it felt good. Of course, during the course of the one hour session, I would wonder why the hell i was putting myself through it!

After the trial, I decided to register for the 1 month course. I decided to sign up for the 7am session. The first session was a fitness assessment in order for the instructors to identify our fitness levels and to divide us accordingly. I am of course in the lowest team; ie the Rangers. I finished the assessment in 20 minutes and 49 seconds; which was one of the worst :-(

Anyway, this is the 4th week since I joined OB. I do feel a bit better (I can now walk up the 3 floors to my in laws flat without hyperventilating when I reach the top floor!) but the improvements are slow. I have not loss any weight (this is my fault as I have not been controlling my food!) and I feel useless most times at bootcamp because I have older women doing better than me! It is embarrassing to be the last in line and also the person who cant keep up and keeps stopping or slowing down. I still am struggling with the jogging and running and the push ups. But I am not giving up. I don't want to have regrets and I am determined to push through.

This Saturday would be the last session for the month and next Tuesday (which coincidentally is my wedding anniversary) will be the 1st session of the next course which means we will be doing the fitness assessment again. I hope that I manage to finish it in less time than when I first started. It would be a nice anniversary present for me :-).

OB is great for fitness. And I know with consistency, I will improve, surely but surely. A big thank you to the instructors for their motivation, push and effort to get us into shape!

If you want more info on Original Bootcamp, visit their website at www.bootcamp.com.my!

Touched

My sister wrote a post in her blog about me. It touched me deeply and I had tears stream down my eyes as I read it.

Read it here (Post name :Biggest (Balls) Loser Asia)
http://snooty-snooty.blogspot.com

Thank you dear sister for those wonderful words.

Love you!

The Biggest Loser Asia Audition

It was an interesting day today.

I was at the Curve by about 8.15am. There was already about 15 people in front of me. The whole thing felt a little surreal to me. Seeing the biggest loser posters all over and all the crew running around getting prepared. I watched as more and more big people started to show up.

It was a good thing I got there early! Within the next hour, the numbers increased rapidly and the line got longer and longer.

I met some interesting people and it was nice getting to know them and share our experiences together.

I met up with Melkoo from the support group. It was nice to finally meet her. I saw Simran in line about an hour later but I wasn't sure if I would lose my place in line if I left to go over and talk to her so I didn't. But I bumped into her on my way out after the audition.

So anyway, I spent a few hours there. We waited until 10am before it started going. The first batch of 10 were sent in. I was in the 2nd batch. We went in, registered, had our picture taken and then sat around talking for awhile. Then we were sent upstairs where we took turns getting our height, weight and blood pressure taken.

They had a small buffet line set up for us and they kept encouraging us to eat. On more than half of the table there was lasagna, potato wedges, mee hoon, sausages, etc. On the other side was fresh vegetables, bananas and some other fruits. They had water and milk.

It was tempting but I resisted. After the weighing, I grabbed a banana (I hadnt eaten any breakfast!). After that we hung around waiting as they took people out 2 by 2 to go for the audition.

Finally it was my turn to go wait in line. One of the production guys asked a few of us if we had family with us. I had mine so he asked me to call them up. My hubby and my mum were with me. Then they got Sarimah to do a short interview with us!

Soon it was my turn to go into the room. Boy was I nervous. They asked me a few simple questions like my name, age, job, my favorite foods, why should I be chosen for the show, what would I do with the money if I won and something else I cant remember. I was pretty nervous and stumbled over my answers a bit.. :-(

Anyway, that was it. A long wait but a quick audition. There were about 200 people who showed up. The sad thing is only 2 people from Malaysia will be chosen to join the show. I know I didn't get through though cause I didn't get a call back but then I knew from the start not to expect much because only 2 people were going to be selected.

Anyway, it was a fun experience and thanks to DM for coming to support us there!! And of course thanks to my dear hubby and mum for waiting there with me for those few hours!